Wild Consumption

I understand the idea and passion of Vegan and Vegetarianism. I was Vegetarian for 3 years some time ago until I saw first hand the ins and outs of Farming, Ranching and Wild Game Hunting. Which they do to fill the freezer and feed their families through out the whole year. I know the intensity and the disagreement that comes from hunting. but it isn't something that is going to end entirely any time soon. I would like to take hunters as much as I can off of the wild landscapes and give them an easier target for a larger animal of their choosing by Ranching deer and elk.. I do favor Archery for hunting my animals due to the fact that it is much much more difficult to best that animal and brings the playing card to an even match and is also quiet so that the whole forest is not interrupted by a well known death. It should be quiet and gentle. So here is my Experience.


We sat down at the edge of the fence line with forest across a meadow in front of us and a line of trees leading to a slow river / swamp behind us. While we sat to wait for deer to appear in the meadow I held the nearest tree with the palm of my hand on it and let it hold most of my weight, leaning back, pulling on it. I felt the wind sway the tree and I quieted the inner commentary of my mind while facing the river, I knew if I faced the meadow I would be too tempted to look for deer. I listened to the wind and my breathing and entered my state of awareness – Meditative State -  which is the same 'frequency' of the forest. Immediately saw a view of the meadow from the other side of it. I saw where we were sitting and was scanning the fence line. I knew right where Gavin and I were which I can imagine was due to scent. I concentrated on the spot where we were along the fence a lot, so I radiated a sense of curiosity, welcome and safety from the side where we sat. I held this safe and curious emotion as long as I could. It is still very exhausting to hold a sense of presence or awareness this way for me. As I held this thought Gavin got my attention because a deer was headed into the meadow from my far right side in front of us. The fawn almost ran right across the meadow and slowed to the tree line on our side. She trotted the fence line until she was two feet from the grass straight in front of me. She was roughly 8 feet from me because we were back in the trees. Of course we were not about to shoot a baby deer so we held as still as possible until the fawn relaxed her gaze and trotted of the meadow about five feet to our left toward the water. More and more deer piled out to the right side but our scent was riding the wind right to them. They would step out about half way across the meadow, stop and look our way before they run back in the woods alarmed. With a bow and arrow we have to be about 25 yards from game to shoot. These deer were 60-80 yards in the meadow, I watched them sneak closer and disappear to the water off the bank where we sat and eventually they pop back out. We had hope that these deer would be in range if they followed the trees to us. Gavin got my attention because we had no idea there was a doe about 35 yards to our left and we heard her stomping right toward us. Gavin tells me to put my first pin – aiming tool on a compound bow sight – on her chest though I knew for sure she was much closer to about 15 yards by now, When I got my pin on her I put my second pin on her which is a shot ranged for about 35 yards away, I don’t know why this felt right but I released and heard impact. She ran about 50 yards from where she was hit and died very quickly my arrow snapped inside her, I had punctured both lungs and slit her heart. It is a very sad thought to take this life away and I never felt her leave her body like I had hoped. I’m positive she didn’t feel much pain and I’m happy that this kill was clean and fast. I’m not pleased or proud about killing this animal, but I know now that I can kill, skin and clean most any animal if or when I need to.